Not Me.

I don't.  
I won't. 
I haven't.
I'm not.  


Promise.


Believe me?


Because they don't. 

Life Lessons.

Time flew by. Life has been crazy. I never ever would have guessed everything that has happened to me this past month and a half. I've had dreams come true, dreams crushed, and I’ve realized new dreams. I feel like I've been living a dream, in that half the time it doesn't seem real- its too good to be true or too awful to comprehend. 

The other night I was in my room and my world felt like it had just ended, I had just gotten off the phone with my parents and was talking to my roommates about the recent heartbreak, when I get a text telling me about a tragedy that happened to my best friends family. I was shocked. Numb. I stopped crying. And I started laughing, hysterically, like a certified crazy person. I couldn't believe how quickly life could change from being perfect one day, to crashing down until if felt like there was nothing left to live for. 

But you know what I'm learning? It’s the strong ones in life that get the trials thrown at them. Why? Because they can handle it, they can learn and grow from their trials. We can know there is always something to look forward to, something to live for and be excited about. Whether it’s a warm day in the frozen tundra of Idaho, the excitement of starting a new semester, or being able to talk to old friends, there is always something to look forward to.

And I always have something to be grateful for, like godsend friends and roommates who did everything in their power to cheer me up on my birthday. I will always be in their debt for getting me through that day. And my family, I’ve never appreciated or loved them as much as I do now.

So here’s to this past month. Here’s to showing me what I’m made of, showing me how much I’m loved, and how much I have going for me. And here’s to all those that love and support me, I’ve needed you and you’ve been there for me.

Thanks.