I need a pack-mule.

I got (most of) my textbooks.

Look

At

That

Pile.

You know its bad when the bookstore people laugh at your stack of books, when their eyes are getting bigger and bigger when the pile keeps growing and expanding, and when they're laughing at the lack of a social life I'll get this semester (besides getting to really know my books). 

Ouch.

But see the pile next to the books?

Its my NURSING KIT! (aka- Stethoscope, BP cuff, goggles, thermometer, penlight, hemostats, bandage scissors, and SCRUBS!)

WHOOT!

So... Anyone want their blood pressure taken???

I'm a real nurse!

I got to do the coolest thing EVER yesterday. I spent my day in an OR.


For those of you medical terminology challenged, thats an Operating Room.


Yes. Where they cut people open and poke their guts. (Thats how Jacob describes it). 

See, that's me, all scrubbed up!


Anyways, it was so much fun. And I only got sick once, but once I walked out of the room and sat down for a few minutes, good as new. The surgeries were so neat, on one lady, they removed her whole eye pretty much, except for the sclera (which is the white part of the eye). Did I pass out? Oh no, not me :) And I even got to help with some things, and read machines and play nurse all day. 
I've got more gory details if you want them... but they tend to make some people sick. 


But just know, the human body, AMAZING. It was so cool to see my anatomy class in action!
And it was great to be surrounded by all these people who love their jobs, knowing that can be my job someday. 


So i'm even more confident in my decision to be a nurse now, and so much more excited to start the program in 5 days. 
Yeah, 5 days. 

Doldrums

I'm in the doldrums of spring break. 
{{Did I use the word correctly?}}


Don't get me wrong, I'm loving being home. 


But... I sleep in until 9 or 10. Eat breakfast.


Shower? Mmm... maybe I'll get around to it by 11 or 12.


Errand/Activity time. So far this has included school shopping, visiting my sister, playing with my brothers...


Then, well, I help (or watch) my mom make dinner and talk...


Family time (again)
And some more,
And some more,
And maybe a bit more.


Then I go to bed.


With no roommate to talk to :(




I know I shouldn't complain, I was sick of my life being a roller coaster, but couldn't we find a happy medium?

Refresh

So this semester is ending. I can't believe how fast it flew by. I know I said that before, but this time it’s more true than ever. I feel like I just moved into my apartment, I just started dating Spencer, just starting to feel like I belonged in this college life.

And now Winter semester is ending. And I'm so excited for it to be over. Not because it was bad, I've learned so much about life, love and myself, but because I want a change. I want to see how much I've learned. I want to do school full time again, completely throw myself into the nursing program. I want to see what I'm made of, in a different way than I saw this semester. This semester was emotionally challenging- I was taken to my breaking point several times, and I passed it a couple. Next semester though, I feel its all going to be academic.

And it sounds so refreshing to me. I’m ready for a fresh start. I’m ready for this rollercoaster of a semester to be over, and to be academically overwhelmed.

If you want me, I’ll be the one sleeping in my scrubs at the library. 

Journaling.

So... I haven't been the best at keeping up with this blog. And its not because nothing has been happening. I can promise you that. Life has been hectic. Crazy. It's because I've now become a journal-er. A true, write in my journal once a day kinda girl. It is my therapy. My way to express my thoughts. My way to work through personal problems. My way to organize my thoughts. 


Because I've realized something. Sometimes, you have to work through some things on your own.


And I love being able to read through everything I've been going through, see ideas forming, see my progress, see my ups and my downs. 
I'm hooked. 


But... I do want to keep this blog going. Don't worry.

Not Me.

I don't.  
I won't. 
I haven't.
I'm not.  


Promise.


Believe me?


Because they don't. 

Life Lessons.

Time flew by. Life has been crazy. I never ever would have guessed everything that has happened to me this past month and a half. I've had dreams come true, dreams crushed, and I’ve realized new dreams. I feel like I've been living a dream, in that half the time it doesn't seem real- its too good to be true or too awful to comprehend. 

The other night I was in my room and my world felt like it had just ended, I had just gotten off the phone with my parents and was talking to my roommates about the recent heartbreak, when I get a text telling me about a tragedy that happened to my best friends family. I was shocked. Numb. I stopped crying. And I started laughing, hysterically, like a certified crazy person. I couldn't believe how quickly life could change from being perfect one day, to crashing down until if felt like there was nothing left to live for. 

But you know what I'm learning? It’s the strong ones in life that get the trials thrown at them. Why? Because they can handle it, they can learn and grow from their trials. We can know there is always something to look forward to, something to live for and be excited about. Whether it’s a warm day in the frozen tundra of Idaho, the excitement of starting a new semester, or being able to talk to old friends, there is always something to look forward to.

And I always have something to be grateful for, like godsend friends and roommates who did everything in their power to cheer me up on my birthday. I will always be in their debt for getting me through that day. And my family, I’ve never appreciated or loved them as much as I do now.

So here’s to this past month. Here’s to showing me what I’m made of, showing me how much I’m loved, and how much I have going for me. And here’s to all those that love and support me, I’ve needed you and you’ve been there for me.

Thanks.